What I was doing was…

Right -sigh- this is me describing my intention for my creative efforts for today: I would focus on developing the show by working through the exercises I defined for myself last week. Here’s me saying what actually happened: I resisted and instead read some plays that were recommended to me by @lizifpatch (thank you again Lizi!) and I even wrote some words. This is what made the difference between intention and result: I feel stuck in my existing conception of this project and have been thinking about what I need to let go of, including the belief that I need to make this at all, and I saw that it felt more helpful today to absorb inspiration and possibility rather than try to force and output. Now I describe my thoughts and feelings: I am feeling lost, but also finding lots of inspiration in Tim Crouch’s work -it has sparked some thoughts which excite me. Finally, what I see coming next as an intention: I want to hold this, but lightly, like a visiting butterfly.