What I was doing was…

More exploring the past today, trying to pinpoint the changing stories I’ve had about things (this is a vague description because I don’t feel like I want to share the content of it here). Five minutes quiet and ten minutes writing -creating a list of ‘I’ statements and first person questions that chart my change in perspective from child to now. Been doubting whether this is all worthwhile or helpful or inspiring this last 24 hours but am holding onto a sense of ‘fuck it, it feels important so I’m just going to play with it’ -trying to hold onto the idea of the Bong Joon-ho quote @emmie_spencer shared ‘the most personal is the most creative’ (thank you for the inspo-pep, Emmie). So busy with work stuff at the moment my headspace for anything creative is almost non existent and that feels frustrating and like part of me is locked in a cellar somewhere -thinking that it’ll be this way for another few weeks yet, sigh. Plod on tomorrow because doing nothing is worse.