What I was doing was…

Generating questions to explore the meaning behind the stuff I want to draw on from my novel. In 15 minutes I brainstormed about 25 questions to help point my attention at the memories, feelings and experiences that seem part of this project. Over the past few days I’ve realised I am not ready to plot this thing out, that doing so would be a thinking exercise and I don’t feel connected enough to the deeper meaning behind the things I want to talk about, like I can locate them intellectually with words, but not in that lived and felt sense (the quote I came across in this book resonated with me and caused me to ask: am I yet clear of the meaning I want to convey?) Hoping this will be useful (I mean I feel stuck anyway so I guess it can’t hurt) and it feels good to have some discreet things I can work on each day while headspace is in short supply. Tomorrow I will see what it’s like to use one of these questions as a reflection provocation.