What I was doing was…

Free writing around the inspirations and interests for this novel. Spent 15 minutes writing to connect to the feelings and experiences I’ve had that I want to draw on for this story, and the images and ideas about my zero draft that most excite me. Am feeling lost with the story and plotting away at it feels like something I’m not actually ready for -the change from this to the next draft feels bigger and I need to understand it more. Feeling damn tired and like I can’t be bothered but at least I showed up and the thinking, even though it’s more typing and looking at a screen, felt helpful and what I could manage. Tomorrow I might do a bit more, I’m liking hitting upon those fizzy truths I’d like to speak and incorporate.