What I was doing was…

This morning I spent 20 minutes criticising myself and my solo show idea -in a structured and calm way. I wrote a letter to myself from my Voice of Doom listing all the worst things I sometimes fear are true about this work. I noticed in speaking with people about this project that in places I would squirm, would caveat or censor how I said things, would feel like a fraud or imposter -doubt and self-criticism sometimes comes along for the ride so I thought I’d make room to listen to it so I can put it to one side and get on with shit. I feel better actually, and found myself automatically challenging the points as I wrote them. Tomorrow will be some doing, some making happen.